HAPPY NEW YEAR!
(well like 3 min before midnight)
It’s been a long time. For so long, I had no idea what I was going to write in this post but I knew it needed to be done. To be honest, I still don’t know what I’m gonna write but hopefully as I start typing it will flow lol. Let’s see, where did we leave off? I was in my last semester of college (which was kicking my butt). I was worried about finding a job, what I wanted to do, where I was gonna live, etc. etc. You know, the normal worries for someone who was about to graduate. The big question was do I move back home or stay in Orlando? I felt like I needed to stay in Orlando, but I didn’t know if I was going to find a job to be able to afford to live as an entry level employee. I felt like I had the weight of the world on my shoulders. It was tough. Especially being the planner that I am, it’s hard not knowing what your next steps are.
Long story short, after months of stress, my internship ended up hiring me and just like that the months of stress were over. After graduation, I took a couple of weeks off and then started working. I found an apartment that I love, moved in, and started a new season in my life. It’s been almost 8 months now that I’ve graduated and a little over 7 months that I’ve been working. Let me tell you, adulting is hard! It hasn’t been easy, which is a partial reason for why I’ve been so M.I.A. But adulting deserves it’s own post (maybe even multiple), so I’ll save that for another time.
I thought since I wasn’t in school anymore, I would have all this time to work on my blog. I didn’t have any homework or tests to study for (the best part about graduating). I could just come home and work on the blog a little, do the bulk of it on the weekends and everyone lives happily ever after. Yeah… It didn’t turn out that way. I would come home tired (still do) and the last thing I wanted to do was blog. I felt like I didn’t have a creative bone left in my body. It didn’t matter what was going on in my life, I just kept making excuses not to blog.
It was only recently that I had a couple people, in the course of one week actually, ask me about my blog. I didn’t think it was that important or that people even noticed that I stopped doing it. It was one conversation that stuck out to me though. My friend had asked me what was going on with the blog. I said nothing really and he said, “why?” It was that simple question that made me think, “Wait, why am I not blogging?” I had no answer to give him because I honestly didn’t know why. I didn’t know what was stopping me from blogging. Was it laziness? Was it fear of failing? It could’ve been a combination of a lot of things. But it wasn’t until, I spent some time with God and got understanding and insight to the plans that God has placed in my heart. Plans that I had long forgotten about. I realized that my blog is so much bigger than just a blog.
The dreams, the visions, the ideas placed in my heart, all start from here. I just needed to start.
So 2016 was a crazy year for me. It wasn’t one of my best and it was probably one of the most emotional years. Like I mean I was on a crazy emotional rollercoaster the WHOLE year. I didn’t think I had that much tears in me lol but I can sit here and talk about all the bad or decide to remember the good. Like I started the year off with a new car, I GRADUATED college, I got a job, I got a new apartment (apartment tour coming soon), and I grew in my faith and ministry like never before. Huge, milestone moments happened in 2016. My life is still crazy; but with a little change of perspective, my outlook is a whole lot different. So I’m back, the blog is back and 2017 I’m coming for ya!
Photos by Alex